My Hearts (Never) Ends

Assalamualaikum Wr. Wb.

Gw dapat kiriman tulisan nih dari seorang teman. Tapi dalam bahasa Inggris dan untuk menjaga keasliannya, sengaja gw biarkan tetap berbahasa Inggris (sebenarnya gw sendiri ga' terlalu menguasai bhs. Inggris, hehe...). Kali ini gw ga' bakal memberikan sambutan yg panjang - panjang, silahkan membaca.....

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My name is Hisy. But my friend (just a friend) calls me with See. I’ve studying in, Universty of Australia for CIT program. Hmm.. Need 4th years for finish my study here. And its make me far away for peoples those I love. So, just with internet connection-lah I can make the conversations with them.

Someday, when I online my face book, I had a new friend request, and this friend, that make my life change, she always there’s when I needed a friend although I know she really busy but she always give me her time.. Yeah, the girl is Vara. don’t know why, when we have conversation, I feel comfort, and can catch the chemistry. Even tough any girls in my friend list, but, this one is different.
Everyday, we have communication, sometimes, I think, I must meet her. But in other side, my heart said, “You can’t See”. I don’t know.

Then, when I have long holiday, november-desember, I’ve come to Indonesia, firstly in my mind is vVara, vara and vara I don’t care again with my brothers, my parents, my friends, etc. Hha.

So, before I went to Malang, my hometown, I went to Vara hometown, Balikpapan. I want to meet Vara, just for 7 days, just for first and last. (I don’t know why my heart said, that it’s first and last).

Yeah. Finally I met her. Oh my God, Vara is very different girl, she have an inner beauty, she’s a strong girl, (mm... her family is broken), I still remember, when I’m sad, she always gave me a good solution... such as: “don’t be like this; please I don’t like it... I know u really strong like a cow… when she said like that I just could laugh out load, but my mind said, you’re differentVara. You’re a smart girl.

Yeah. And in 7days, I spent my time with her, I know, in fact, she doesn’t like she in my face, she is have big problem bout her family. And I know it. But she doesn’t want to show to others.

Someday, in fifth days, Vara brought me in a place, she was saying “this is my favorite place, when I have problems, I go there, try to looking for a little space for me... and you know what? You are the first one I bring in here... I never bring anyone before… only u” and at the moment, I know, that Vara had felt something, maybe same with me. But I’m not sure,

Until in the night, I think “I’m dying, how I can tell her that I love her. What I must to do now? Still quiet? Sometimes I just want to quit, when this problem start hurting me. I want to leave everything as it is before the gets worse. I’m afraid if must have a long distance relationship, I never want the same problem in my past, come again. So afraid. If I can change the time, I won’t be like this. I don’t like to felt like this, this is my first year in college and I want to make my parents proud. But, how about my heart? I can’t lay my heart, yeah, I love Vara, I love Vara, and I really love her. “

In sixth day, I and ayya just spent our time in the café. We just made a joke, or did something crazy, sometimes, I can see in ayya eyes, there is a hope, yeah, a hope, that same with me.

Yeah. And it was the last day I stay in Balikpapan. I try to call Vara mobile, but it was cant. I want to spend my last day with her. But, where she gone? I trying, trying and trying to calling, but no result, maybe Vara haven’t enough power to meet me in last day. Hha (just try to make my heart comfort with this situation), so, I tried to went to her house, and there, I haven’t findVara too, but her room aid gave me a letter. Huff. I cant thinking others, why Vara, why you loose from me? Why you hide from me? Or you think I am a jerk guy, because I not show what I feel to you, Vara, I’m sorry to make you disappointed, yeah, because my worries bout her, I forget to asked, where was Vara, I Ran away from her house, ah! How stupid I!

After all, I sat on the same chair in the same cafe which I and Vara spent our fifth day. And there, I read Vara’s letter:

Dear..

thank you so much for everything that you give to me... I want to tell u bout something...and I know, I must tell u since firstly we met,,,Hisy, I love you See, more then I love my self.. I never had wonderful day, except with you, in 7 days. See, ever since I met you, I’ve loved u from the start. I gave u all my heart though you don’t know ‘bout that. You know what? Your smiles make me lose my breath... I find you so amazing... when you hold me in your arms I feel so warm and content. I love how your brown eyes shine. And even your unique scent. You always make me laugh, even when I’m sad or down... I hope years from now I’ll know u. and we will never be apart, but I want u keep giving me all your love. Coz I will forever be giving you all my heart...
sorry I not tell you ‘bout my disease... like I said... I never say I’m happy when I’m sad... I never say I’m fine when I’m not okay. And I will never show to everyone I feel good when I feel bad... and that still same until now... I never say I’m sick, when I’m happy with u...
I love you… take care Your self... don’t worry ‘bout me... when u read this latter I’m not here... but I still in Your heart always forever… until you find the girl who’s better than me.

You’re the best guy ever been I have….: D

Bye See..,

I can’t believe in this letter. Vara loves me! Yeah! Like the words in her letter. In the time, I don’t think anything; I must know where Vara is and tell how much I love her too. So, I went to Vara’s house for secondly. But, when I knocked the door, behind the door, there was a scream, not scream sih, just speak with loudly “Innallillahi Waina Illahi Rojiun, how can? But...yes Ms.Lia. I will prepare it. How poor Mrs. Vara, she’s smart, young and beautiful. But, why must like this? Okay Ms.I’ll”

I heard the conversation with thousand million worries, what happened with Vara where is she now? Why the room aid said like that. So, I knocked the door secondly and the room aid opened it, with tears, I asked Vara, and she said

“Mrs. Vara dies”

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Agak panjang sih, tapi nikmati aja....

Oh iya, gw lupa. Ini kiriman dari teman gw inisialnya : W.T.P. (makasih ya....). Dia juga minta maaf kalo grammar nya masih ancur, hehe....

Ok, sekian untuk postingan kali ini, tunggu postingan selanjutnya, bye.....

Wassalam. Wr. Wb.

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